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Friday 26 February 2010
          cny's over. holidays r here.finally. wanna get a job.but c seem to find something really decent enough. its either not paying enuf.or it comes with horrendous requirements. was out job hunting w liling 2dae. went to check out a few places.everywhere was looking 4 full-time stuff. darn.how i wish i could work full. e most waste of time was lerkthai... only paying 5 per hr.n have to get a jab 2gether w it. n it doesnt even look good when e manager looks like a goldfish with exploding eyeballs. when i got out of e rest,i was like, no way.no way am i doing tt shit job. i might as well as go work at some bugis street shop.at least it doesnt involve so much phy work. so in e end.we both didnt get a job. not tt i was disappointed.sorta predicted it. might try out cotton on in march. hope i can get it....(: speaking abt job hunting.i tried out frolick.this yogurt ice cream shop at cine. really fab!(:in case u donno.yogurt ice cream is like my fave now. without noeing.i actually ate berrylite,yoguru and frolick all in one wk. im gonna add on w yami 2 make it 4.!ha really hope i get in e FOC camp..(: n the business course. although in e 1st place i aint even sure why im going into e course. but ya.getting in would be awesome.!(: hope i get a good job soon!preferrably cotton on!.. i really need the cash.! theres just too many things to buy. n money would never be sufficient. call me greedy. but may there always be...endless amt of cash! mistakened identity jiasylvia donno why. no matter how many times i watch andrew johnson on brit's got talent. i feel like crying. can youtube stop banning accts n provide me w korean entertainment. who cares abt copyright man.! theres piracy everywhere...!!! craving seoul garden so badly! n who wants to watch percy jackson?! i have no idea why everyone is just so against it....! |
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Monday 15 February 2010
just popped one van houten chocolate. darn.so sinful.!!!! i just gained some weight over this festive season... its so hard not to eat those new year goodies... especially when most of them only appear once a year. happy cny n oso valentine's day to all..!!! although it doesnt feel like cny at all... especially when it falls on a sun. n with an exam coming up on fri... cny is just like every year. but i didnt get to c some relatives.who went off earlier then me. starting to forget how the hell they look like. i say happy new year to ppl whom i don think i would even recognize on the streets. its pathetic.saying that i noe these ppl.but at the same time not knowing them. going for cny greetings is so different at different scenes. one moment im comfortable. when another im just standing there,looking awkward.donno wth im supposed to do... im lost at what to do with the situation. i want to do something,anything.so that it could be better. but i have no idea.what am i suppose to do in my power.to change it. mistakened identity jiasylvia. i've started to laugh about our misfortunes. because i couldnt find somebody, somebody to weep with me.... i was foolish enough to think that things would be different this year. hoping that the silence could be broken. sometimes i really think that im the only one who bother. that you don even give a darn about the situation. sometimes i would really wanna noe the truth. but im scared that the truth is going to break me up in pieces. yes.call me sentimental. but memories are a huge part of me.it means everything. no matter when or where some things happened. as long as it involved ppl that i care about. its valuable to me.its something that i hold on with dear life so as never to forget. it's been starting to blur.n ive been hoping to create new memories with u that i can hold on to. i want us back.back to the days when we were happy. bizzare thoughts just kept running through my head.... ,,i noe by e look of things that it ain't gonna be possible.... how is it possible to make myself put in the effort. when u just stand there.looking like you don care. i cry sometimes thinking about it. i tried..i tried so hard to fight back those tears. i think im foolish.i think its pathetic. but i cant help it. i don even noe if i should be crying. but emotions got the better of me. with all of my heart.,i hope that u would take notice. how much it matters to me. that we are no longer, how we used to be. |
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Saturday 6 February 2010
 im still working on the evaluation essay now. ive been redoing again and again. backspacing countless times. no matter how many times i rephrase my sentences i still think it doesnt look right one way or another. or at least it doesnt look right enough to help me maintain my A+ im so wired out this few days everyday went by with lesser and lesser sleep. im starting to live the life of a vampire how i wish i don need to sleep,eat and be ravishing beautiful... tts if food doesnt come in the form of red,vomiting blood. i just feel like 24 hours is never enough. there's just so many things to do.... like now.im writing this blog just so i don fall asleep. my lids were half close for half of the time during lesson today and i feel horrible all over. right from my head till e tip of my toes n it doesnt help when the fucking hairdresser messed up my hair i was feeling super pissed when i came back home right after. n e fucking asshole at home just have to rub salt onto my wound. n there goes another world war 2 of censored language when u donno anything. just keep your mouth shut nobody is gonna call u mute just cause u shut up for tt moment. theres always those fucking irritating moments at home tt i have to go through. practically everyday sometimes im freaking sick of it. but tts how life will always be. bcos generation gap would never disappear. n the lack of communication would always stay i guess e only happening thing that happened recently was the AGM 2010 ystd it was cool.n i enjoyed myself being in the dance group. fun experience....(: although for half the time i was freezing like hell in the theatre the dance went by so fast.i didnt even realise when it ended. got my 123 cert.really wanna get done with bm fast.! n how i hope i can get that windbreaker!!!!! i guess it does somehow or rather build up some belonging. bcos now although i think im starting to know more ppl. but theres still lots of ppl i have yet to know. n i wish i would be able to in this year. (: mistakened identity jiasylvia it would have been perfect. if someone wasnt so big mouth to broadcast it to the world. |
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