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Monday 15 February 2010
just popped one van houten chocolate. darn.so sinful.!!!! i just gained some weight over this festive season... its so hard not to eat those new year goodies... especially when most of them only appear once a year. happy cny n oso valentine's day to all..!!! although it doesnt feel like cny at all... especially when it falls on a sun. n with an exam coming up on fri... cny is just like every year. but i didnt get to c some relatives.who went off earlier then me. starting to forget how the hell they look like. i say happy new year to ppl whom i don think i would even recognize on the streets. its pathetic.saying that i noe these ppl.but at the same time not knowing them. going for cny greetings is so different at different scenes. one moment im comfortable. when another im just standing there,looking awkward.donno wth im supposed to do... im lost at what to do with the situation. i want to do something,anything.so that it could be better. but i have no idea.what am i suppose to do in my power.to change it. mistakened identity jiasylvia. i've started to laugh about our misfortunes. because i couldnt find somebody, somebody to weep with me.... i was foolish enough to think that things would be different this year. hoping that the silence could be broken. sometimes i really think that im the only one who bother. that you don even give a darn about the situation. sometimes i would really wanna noe the truth. but im scared that the truth is going to break me up in pieces. yes.call me sentimental. but memories are a huge part of me.it means everything. no matter when or where some things happened. as long as it involved ppl that i care about. its valuable to me.its something that i hold on with dear life so as never to forget. it's been starting to blur.n ive been hoping to create new memories with u that i can hold on to. i want us back.back to the days when we were happy. bizzare thoughts just kept running through my head.... ,,i noe by e look of things that it ain't gonna be possible.... how is it possible to make myself put in the effort. when u just stand there.looking like you don care. i cry sometimes thinking about it. i tried..i tried so hard to fight back those tears. i think im foolish.i think its pathetic. but i cant help it. i don even noe if i should be crying. but emotions got the better of me. with all of my heart.,i hope that u would take notice. how much it matters to me. that we are no longer, how we used to be. |
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❝ A bee is attracted to a prettiest flower;
A girl is attracted to a sweetest boy;
I am attracted to the heartless you. ❞
