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Sunday, 15 February 2009
URGGH.im exploding!!!gosh my mind is in a total mess now.. couldnt fight e stress ystd n ended up crying.. i donno wat e hell i freaking want.. n bcos of mi crying i ended up getting into a very very long conversation with my mum..n brother who decided to join in. ok i appreciate their efforts in convincing mi of my situation. i think it did realli help n im feeling better now.. although i donno wat will trigger off in my brain again. so ppl do b aware of mi nowadays cos im rather unstable n a bit of mood swings i hope my current condition will improve 4 e better.. was chatting with raco jus now... felt realli sad tt my clique is splitting up... esp my good long fren ht.. so this few days have been goin out with her...scared tt nxt time wont have e chance le.feel like crying again.. hais...i alr told u guys im rather unstable n emotional nowadays. i think im suffering from a pyschological breakdown. i think its goin 2 b a lonely 3 yrs from now on.. its realli diff 2 find ppl who would laugh @ e same jokes,talk abt e lamest rubbish. n not everyone can tolerate my stupid nonsense sometimes. this yr i made a wish inside mi. something tt is opposite of wat i wished 4 since i was 13... i hope it does come true.. although 4 some girls who gets 2 noe wat i wished will think im crazy.. but ya ttts e way i am.. heard frm regina quite alot of whitleyans r goin overseas,, like lennon,giovanni,shindy..juz 2 name a few.. lucky people./.if i could afford it i would have done so./. its not like im fond of spore. lots of whitleyans r goin nyp..i think it will b easy making frens there 4 those goin there...unlike e rest of us in other polys.. but i think ht will have 2 make do with new frens since both of us have some not-so-good relations with some 'other people'.. ok..totally overly enuf of those poly shit.. i think im juz goin 2 flood my mind with everything rainbowly n nice. hack...n 2 think i had thise bizzare dream abt whitley ystd night.. didnt think i would miss tt place until i could even dream of it 3 nights in a row. tts realli....unbelievable. oh ya b4 i go 4 another round of isketch.. belated happy valentine's day to everyone.. no matter r u attached or a singleton like mi... which i plan 2 b in e 3 yrs in poly.... i don want my brain 2 get jammed with all those annoying stuff anw...still happy lovers day 2 all people./ n enjoy yr life.eat shit sleep...watever.juz survive after u read this post..if u think im crazy...i think ur right. i am in e process of being crazy. i don even noe wat im writing.. watever... hack...my mums crying in front of e tv with korean soap dramas on play again.. i think i better hand her a box of tissue...b4 she floods e whole room. so ciaos. mistakened identity. jias flare up. |
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❝ A bee is attracted to a prettiest flower;
A girl is attracted to a sweetest boy;
I am attracted to the heartless you. ❞
